silver stands in my pensieve

if this is a day ending in "y", then i must be thinking of quitting my job. ^_^ well, as much as i feel hurt by the kind of treatment i have been getting for as long as i can remember, i realized that there is nothing much that i can do to change my boss' attitude towards me, no matter how hard i try. if he doesn't like me, he doesn't like me. and the feeling is mutual. while i am positive that his impression of me will not get better, i also realized that there is no reason for me to feel down or to pity myself for getting this kind of treatment. i will just have to walk away with my pride intact. y'know, 上を向いて歩こう (ue wo muite arukou = i will walk with my head held high aka "sukiyaki") [breaks into a song] heehee. he is not the best judge of character in the whole wide world and maybe someday he will realize his mistake. 期待しないけど。。。 i will leave soon, and i promise the Lord that i will try not to harbor ill feelings toward the boss. it's not going to be easy; i'll be needing all the grace i can get. but i will try really, really hard. and i will not forget ritchelle's words of wisdom. ^_^ so there, i am not mad, i am not mad, i do not have ill feelings towards you, i forgive you, i still admire your intellect and i hope that when i come back, you will look at me and say that i am a worthy protege. ^_^

though i hate to leave with nothing but bad memories about this, i don't have any reason to stay here any longer. after all, i can always prove my worth somewhere else...where what i do will be seen objectively, without an ounce of bias for or against me. it's going to be hard, once i think of leaving pami, clem, jerv, chester, tans, tita prime, mang jess, mang buboy, all the friends i have made...but i have to make the decision. after all, it's for my personal and professional growth.

it's thursday today, and ritchelle told me to wait until she finds out the status of my application at the 外務省 before i do anything drastic. geez, i can't even wait for april 1st to hand in my resignation.

do you know what your name means?

my american friend nathalie emailed me this interesting link and i checked out what my name (first name, middle name and last name) really means so here goes:

catalina
You are a quick study, and can be self-taught. Your curiosity can get the best of you, but you must learn to concentrate. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You have a need to be up front. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a need to be up front.

esperanza
You have a need to communicate and express yourself. You are inclined to over intellectualize, and hate to be misquoted. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have a need to be up front. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are compassionate, highly imaginative and creative. You have a need to be up front.

ramos
You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have a need to be up front. You are always involved with projects and things to do. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You have a need to earn money to prove your success to society and must learn the true value of material gains and status.

jeffer will only be too thrilled to take this test!

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