Wednesday, March 31, 2004

one down...

i got past that graduate school entrance exam yesterday...i think i did well in the english and essay parts. then i totally bombed during the math test. ^^;; well, not totally...i managed to get some sure answers, particularly to those questions involving money, hehe. but it's been a long time since i graduated from university and i have all but forgotten stuff like algebra and geometry. some questions really annoyed me...i mean, what the hell will i need this for?? "suppose a car's gas tank is 5/8 full. if you take away 6 liters of gas, the tank is 1/4 full..." why do you have to remove 6 liters of gas, anyway? honestly, i have never been good at math. it's not that i hate math; maybe i hated it before but forced myself to like it because i realized that i will be dealing with it for the whole of my academic life. i did get good grades in most of my math subjects, particularly in college, but that was because i studied really hard for them. math skills don't come naturally for me; i have to sweat hard for that.

one more to go...

the next three days of my life will be extremely busier then ever. i have only 3 chapters to study for the exam but tons of kanji come with those 3 chapters. ^^;; i am not really bad with kanji; in fact, i think i am quite good at it. ^_^ which is saying something for a non-chinese/japanese like me. ahahaha, nerd, nerd, nerd!

had a nice weekend, by the way...

saturday, gev gave me a cd of mostly glay videos. ^_^ she put in a gackt video (i didn't know which one) somewhere in the middle, but didn't put the title in the list. anyway, the cd title was "finding gackt". sound like "finding nemo". whaat?? m'dear gackt, now a fish!! anyway, i finally found the vid near the very end. it was "gackt vs. puffy" on the hokuto. it was really funny! but i didn't like it because of that...i swear, gackt has the bestest voice ever! listening to him speak made me wanna swoon...aahh, that is the voice i want to have in my bedroom every night! sorry, koyasu! ^_^v

sunday was my father's birthday. we didn't go anywhere, just pizza and ice cream at home. boring. anyway, the highlight of that day was when he and my sister made up. yay! they had a long-standing cold war about my sister not being able to find a job when everyone else was helping her get one. anyway, that's all over now. ^_^

whew! what a relief...now, i can go full throttle on my career plans. i don't think the elders in the family would appreciate another unemployment case at home!

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Monday, March 29, 2004

i have an exam to study for; i will be taking my graduate school entrance exam at 8 in the morning tomorrow so this means, i have to study some more tonight. *but* i have to do overtime work too...like my favorite instant noodles, lucky me!! why do all of these things happen to me??

speaking of exams...i have another one coming up on saturday, my midterm japanese test, which will include my most favorite (sarcasm intended) listening exam!! yahoo!!

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happy birthday, papa!! i wish you good health and a longer life. sorry, but you will have to wait a little longer for that grandchild, nyaha!! :P i love you! * march 28 *

i am very much interested in your blood type...

so goes the design on one of my korean stationery sets, hehe. honestly, at first, i didn't know why most japanese are so into blood types. then i found out (thru some internet searches) that one's blood type may be indicative of his/her personality. i don't know if this has any scientific basis but i decided to just check out what it says about my personality. i am a type o so according to this site:

Type O Blood people are said to set the mood for a group and to take on the role of creating harmony among its members. Their image is one of taking it easy, of being peaceful and carefree. They are also thought to be big-hearted and benevolent, and they tend to spend money on others generously. O Types are generally "loved by all." But, they also, surprisingly, have a stubborn and strong-willed side, as well, and tend to secretly have their own opinions on things. On the other hand, they have the flexible, adaptable side of readily accepting new things. They are easily influenced by other people or by what they see on TV. They seem to appear level-headed and trustworthy, but they often slip and make big blunders inadvertently. But that is also the point that makes O Types lovable. that's me, alright!! ^_^

also, according to japan visitor, the type o is:

The Warrior

trendsetter
loyal
passionate
self-confident
independent
ambitious (in a positive way, ok?)
vain (hey! i resent that!)
jealous (i guess i am...)

some famous type o's are queen elizabeth ii, john lennon (i knew it!! i am his reincarnation!), elvis presley, liam and noel gallagher, and paul newman.

so what's your blood type?

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Thursday, March 25, 2004

for the past 3 days, i have lived on nothing but oatmeal, dry crackers, green tea, jasmine tea and gatorade.

monday: i woke up feeling light-headed. i was nauseous for the whole day, kinda like how a preggy woman might feel in the morning. so i was kidding anyone who would listen, "maybe i really got pregnant!" i was telling people i saw gackt sunday night on nhk and i couldn't sleep after that. then the following morning, i started feeling like a pregnant woman; gackt got me pregnant!! and i just saw him on tv! heehee. so gevy and i started talking about pregnancy and gackt and teru...for the nth time. anyway, i tried eating something for breakfast but i wasn't able to finish everything. when i got home, i threw up everything i ate. eww...i went to bed right away, my tummy still uneasy.

tuesday: i was worse. the "morning sickness" was worse, and i had diarrhea so i decided to skip work in the morning. then i realized i had so much work to do so i went to the office after lunch. i wasn't any better but i had to push myself...

wednesday: i found out i wasn't pregnant after all...:P oh, well...gackt and i will try again next time. ^_^ at this point, you might be thinking i have probably spat out my brain accidentally with my breakfast 2 days ago. ask me if i care. ^_^

today: oatmeal for breakfast. bananas for lunch. nothing for dinner. or probably tea.

here i go again...

my fingers are itching again...it's like, i must click the "add to cart" button...argh! now i wanted to get that new single from l'arc~en~ciel, 瞳の住人 (hitomi no jyuunin). it comes with a ken, yukihiro, and tetsu versions of "ready, steady, go". >_< i have to get it, i have to get it, i have to get it...that single, and gackt's autobiography...

which means...

i will have to use my credit card again...spank me, mom! i really have to stop this "online shopping" addiction.

or which means...

i have to get a higher paying job. speaking of which, i actually got a call from a head hunter yesterday and she was telling me of a job which pays more than twice my current salary. of course, i was tempted to take it. imagine, if i get that much money every month, i can buy all the gackt, laruku, blah-blah stuff that i want! but reality check. if i take that job, how will it impact on my future career plans? i mean, if i were to quit my present job, i would want to get another job that will make use of my college degree (economics) or my japanese language skill, or both. sad to say, the high-paying job neither makes use of both.

which means...

i might have to politely decline invitations for interviews with the company.

which means...

karren, my dear friend from high school who is currently working for the head hunter organization, will be disappointed with me. after all, i did send her my cv for consideration. but will i make the same mistake again? will i go into another job only to dislike it so much in the end?

no, sir. i have drawn my career map and i am 100% sure where i want to go. i am still planning how to get there but i am very clear on what i want. ritchelle and i talked about it yesterday, and it seems we both want the same things. good for me! (and her, i hope) i am embarking on an ambitious career path and it's good that i have someone to share the challenges with me...not to compete against, but to cooperate with...to provide mutual support. ^_^

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Thursday, March 18, 2004

if this is a day ending in "y", then i must be thinking of quitting my job. ^_^ well, as much as i feel hurt by the kind of treatment i have been getting for as long as i can remember, i realized that there is nothing much that i can do to change my boss' attitude towards me, no matter how hard i try. if he doesn't like me, he doesn't like me. and the feeling is mutual. while i am positive that his impression of me will not get better, i also realized that there is no reason for me to feel down or to pity myself for getting this kind of treatment. i will just have to walk away with my pride intact. y'know, 上を向いて歩こう (ue wo muite arukou = i will walk with my head held high aka "sukiyaki") [breaks into a song] heehee. he is not the best judge of character in the whole wide world and maybe someday he will realize his mistake. 期待しないけど。。。 i will leave soon, and i promise the Lord that i will try not to harbor ill feelings toward the boss. it's not going to be easy; i'll be needing all the grace i can get. but i will try really, really hard. and i will not forget ritchelle's words of wisdom. ^_^ so there, i am not mad, i am not mad, i do not have ill feelings towards you, i forgive you, i still admire your intellect and i hope that when i come back, you will look at me and say that i am a worthy protege. ^_^

though i hate to leave with nothing but bad memories about this, i don't have any reason to stay here any longer. after all, i can always prove my worth somewhere else...where what i do will be seen objectively, without an ounce of bias for or against me. it's going to be hard, once i think of leaving pami, clem, jerv, chester, tans, tita prime, mang jess, mang buboy, all the friends i have made...but i have to make the decision. after all, it's for my personal and professional growth.

it's thursday today, and ritchelle told me to wait until she finds out the status of my application at the 外務省 before i do anything drastic. geez, i can't even wait for april 1st to hand in my resignation.

do you know what your name means?

my american friend nathalie emailed me this interesting link and i checked out what my name (first name, middle name and last name) really means so here goes:

catalina
You are a quick study, and can be self-taught. Your curiosity can get the best of you, but you must learn to concentrate. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. Your privacy is important to you. You have a rich inner life. You have a need to be up front. You have a diplomatic flair to your nature. Equality and fairness are important to you. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You have a need to be up front.

esperanza
You have a need to communicate and express yourself. You are inclined to over intellectualize, and hate to be misquoted. You try to be prudent. You have good business acumen. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis. You need to learn to be expressive. You are a person who cannot tolerate being misunderstood. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have a need to be up front. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are compassionate, highly imaginative and creative. You have a need to be up front.

ramos
You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You have a need to be up front. You are always involved with projects and things to do. You have a great deal of loyalty to those you love. You have much inner strength. You have a need to earn money to prove your success to society and must learn the true value of material gains and status.

jeffer will only be too thrilled to take this test!

HASH(0x8912500)
Who are you among the F4 guys??

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Wednesday, March 17, 2004

random (stupid) thoughts on love

love is like a cup of tea. it tastes good when it is warm/hot. but when the tea becomes lukewarm, it's not so delicious anymore, and you notice how bitter it is. not the exact translation but:
愛はお茶のようだ。熱ければ、熱いほどおいしい。
でも、お茶が温くなったら、おいしいくなくて、苦い。

nyerks...i told you it was stupid...but the more i think of it, the more it makes sense. or not. maybe it was because the green tea i had this morning tasted awful, hehe.

i wanted to get started on my gackt blog


but i was so tired last night. i don't even want to look at the computer. i already have a pretty good idea of how the layout will look; i even have a name for it but i'm not going to write it here yet. someone might steal it, heehee.

let me just vent my anger

on this particular person. i have a mouthful of not-so-nice things to say but thank goodness, ritchelle is around; i can always confide in her the "developments" in my crazy life. my counselor and emotional punching bag, ritchelle. well, i think i've had enough crap. you can't treat people like dirt and then expect that they'll still be nice to you and respect you. i remembered what ritchelle told me months ago: it pays to be nice to not-so-nice people. well, my patience has reached the limit and i don't want to tolerate this kind of shabby treatment any longer. this time, i won't be so nice.

interesting stuff i got from my nepalese friend, sharu

Is your birthday day 9 of the month?

>Your Life <

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. (i guess this is partly true...) On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. (hah!) This is why people misunderstand you; until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. (extremely pleasant, i might add...) Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. (ooohh...) Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.(well, what can i say?? maybe i ought to slow down a bit?)

>Your Love <

You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. (because i have a problem in promoting myself??) Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. (that's me, alright!) You have luck with children. (that's good to hear...ten years from now.)

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Monday, March 15, 2004

sayonara, melvin-san!

melvin is leaving for japan on the 30th. he's going to study at tokyo university! wow! melvin, you lucky dog, you! send us the karaoke pics!! ^_^ gambatte ne!!

there were only 8 of us: alfred-sensei, melvin, jenina, jimmy, grace k., gigi, maricel and myself. mojica-sensei couldn't make it; he had to rush his dad to the hospital (the morning class was cancelled too. well, i stayed up really late the night before just to finish my homework...but it's ok! i studied in advance for the kanji quiz too...but it's ok!).

after a couple of "melvin" games (i got the lowest score in the "how well do you know melvin" game. oh well...), it's concert time! at least, for melvin, alfred-sensei and myself. we had to ask the others if "they could just please, please choose a song to sing. it doesn't have to be japanese; just anything you feel like singing". i mean, what are you supposed to do in a karaoke bar, anyway? eat? play games and get drunk? exchange stories? jimmy was actually the first one to start singing; he wanted to sing something in chinese but couldn't find one he liked so he sang "someday" instead. you know, "someday"...90 miles outside chicago...according to him, that's his and violy-sensei's song. aaww, so sweet!! ^_^

i was quite disappointed, though. the karaoke bar didn't have my most favorite songs: m'dear gackt's "last song" and "junigatsu no love song", laruku's "anata" and smap's "sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana". sucks, right? and i practiced my gackt songs real hard too!! even in the bathroom...anyway, they only had 2 gackt songs: "wasurenai kara" and "another world" and a lot of glay and laruku songs that i couldn't sing.

anyway, here's my song list:
driver's high - l'arc~en~ciel
lion heart - smap
unwell - matchbox twenty
can't fight the moonlight - leann rimes
nagai aida - kiroro
sayonara daisuki na hito - hana hana
wishing on the same star - amuro namie
yozora no mukou - smap
wasurenai kara - gackt

well, i didn't actually sing "wasurenai kara"...i just wanted to see the video, hehe. (but i did sing the chorus!) i was telling them "ne, minna, while this song is playing, will you please keep quiet??" then melvin said, "is gackt male?" i was like, "how dare you! i am hetero, you know!! i can never like someone of the same sex!" oh well, i guess that's just a testimonial of how beautiful gackt is. much more beautiful than myself, that's for sure. ^_^ i also tried singing mr. children's "hero" with sensei but we sucked. we couldn't even sing half of the chorus. but at least, we did justice to the song by stopping. ^_^ we actually had better luck with "hero" than with "are you in" by incubus. sensei had a "hangover" from the incubus concert the previous night and he wanted to sing "are you in" until we realized "ok, we sound really stupid. will somebody please stop the song?"

after karaoke, melvin, sensei, maricel and i went to "milyang", a korean barbecue restaurant. being in a narrow street, you'd think that not a lot of people go there. but when we got inside, the place was very busy, especially the smoking area, hehe. all the guests were koreans, except us. i've never eaten in such a resto, and i was glad that i went with them. the barbecue was great!! you grill the marinated pork and beef over coals (we actually had someone do that for us. she was really nice too ^_^), then wrap them in lettuce leaves together with all sorts of veggies, and dip them in a "i-forgot-what's-it's-called" sauce. it was sooo delicious! just thinking about it makes my mouth water...we also had lots of free veggies, some were too hot for me to eat so i just left them there. anyway, i didn't have to pay for them. i ate so much (not much, according to the others, so i paid less, hehe) that i didn't think i take the train home alone. i took a cab instead; yep, too full to move my ass!!

the magic mike

rin-san is coming to the country again next month (i think) and she promised to bring her "magic karaoke mike". ^_^ i think i will send her a list of all the songs that i want her to download...i'll make sure that she has all the gackt and laruku songs that i can sing until i croak like a frog!!

gackt...what can i say?

the cds were finally delivered on friday...and i didn't want to sleep; i just wanted to listen to gackt all night long! "the sixth day" cd package came with a, i don't know what's it's called, sort of cellphone accessory. nothing too extravagant, just a soft little white square with the words "gackt: the sixth day" in the middle in black letters. the cd also came with an ID number which enables the cd buyer (that's me!) to reserve tickets for gackt's upcoming live tour!! but of course, before i can use the ID number, i have to be in japan in may or june. he will swing by osaka in june, where he will have a two-day concert at osaka castle hall. so unless i can raise enough money to stay in osaka for about 3 days or so, the ID number will be good only for my scrap book. sad, sad, sad! such is my boring life! i wonder if they will discover me if i hid inside melvin's trunk...

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Friday, March 12, 2004

lalala...my gackt cds have been delivered...nobody can ruin my day for me, la-dee-dah...even gevy cannot get into my nerves, even if she kept on saying that she's having gackt's baby or something. i'm pretty sure it's takuro's!

i am loving laruku's "winter fall", although it is summer already. hyde is beginning to sound like koyasu takehito.

everything i ate today tasted like heaven; even the ampalaya leaves tasted ok!

i managed to finish all of my pending work assignments before the deadline so let me do my cartwheels. my desk isn't so cluttered anymore.

omigosh! it's karaoke day tomorrow and i haven't practiced my "last song" and "december love song" and my "anata"...どうしようかな。。。 well, i'm gonna wow them tomorrow!!

the kanji exam is tomorrow and i already finished reviewing!

sorry for the senseless post...i'm in a giddy state, in my own utopia where no one can ruin my happiness. suddenly, everything around me is beautiful...even jerv's pink striped shirt looked cool.

...because my gackt cds are here!!

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Thursday, March 11, 2004

hello friend...it's been a while. out of the blue, you just came into my mind, and i wondered how you are. i haven't heard anything about you, so i decided to check friendster to see if you're there. i wasn't expecting anything but there you were!! not very active in friendster, i see. i was really surprised; you got married already. i wondered if it was your college sweetheart. then i learned you now have a career totally different from what we majored in back in the university. well, little bundle of surprises, aren't you?

sometimes, i just have this crazy urge to contact anyone who knows both of us and ask them how you are. maybe even talk to you. but i'm scared...scared of my pride, scared of the fact that you might me mad at me for being mad at you back then. i know it's crazy. it's been years since we last talked and it ended just like that. i am sorry now that it ended that way. we had something special going for us; we were like twins who think and act alike but do not look alike. you were my girl friday, i guess.

you know i loved you...only a handful of people knew me very well and you were one of them. i am praying that someday, our paths will cross once again so we can rediscover our long lost friendship. in the meantime, i will be thinking of you, my friend.

You are Gackt.
Sensual, classic, artistic.
You are Gackt. (I know that already. ^_^)

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Wednesday, March 10, 2004

cluttered desk, cluttered life...

when will this end?? i meant, the "cluttered desk" part, of course. i have no intentions of ending my life anytime soon, thank you. life is too beautiful. ^_^

they shipped my gackt cds!! yahoo for cdjapan!! mwah, mwah! please, please get them here by friday...i needed to show them to mae-chan...and my cousin is coming home from tokyo next month!! and she's buying me gackt's album "crescent"!!! yahooo!! i love you, lj, mwah-mwah-mwah!!

mae-chan did something really sweet last saturday...

sensei, being his usual self, was ribbing me about my hair (i took pains of ironing it for some fifteen minutes in the morning, before going to class). he was like "did you marry somebody rich?? how come you had hair rebonding?" then mae-chan just spoke up..she said something like "hey, sensei, stop it...that's my friend, you know." awww...sweet, isn't it? well, i've always considered mae-chan more than a friend, more like a little sister (not that i need another, hehe). we've been classmates for [counts] 6 semesters in japanese school (or about three years now) and she is sort of my "protege" because she decided to major in economics too, and told me that she will just choose the same universities i chose for the monbusho scholarship. i am six years older than her and we both suck at math. ^_^ she's the son goku to my genjo sanzo...so she's my ばかサル (baka saru = stupid monkey)!!! wait, let me get my fan...i need to bonk my monkey on the head with it...kidding, mae!! love you!!

my website needs some serious updating...

it's been over a month since my last update: still no new pictures up, no new dates on the kenshuu diary, no nothing. but i'm afraid it will have to wait for a little more. the midterm exams for my japanese class is coming up in a couple of weeks and i have a graduate school entrance exam to prepare for. ^^;; [shifting to zen mode] i am calm, i am relaxed, i am at peace, i can overcome all of these...AARRGGHHHH!!! time! give me more time!! obviously, my dream of becoming a zen master had just gone down the drain. *sigh*

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Tuesday, March 09, 2004

finding love...or letting it find you?

three out of five people on my blog reading list have written about true love (or the lack of it) in their current posts...and karen wants to get laid so badly, hehe!! peace, girl! anyway, herb was talking about where to find her true love after watching a couple of romantic movies and kents thinks he is falling in love. *sigh* well, what about me?? sometimes, i think about that too. not too seriously, though. i am not actively looking for a guy for a relationship...i mean, give me a break...it's been only less than two months since i broke up with my boyfriend of four years. i've thought about that for a long time. it was a difficult decision; after all, four years was an incredibly long time. but i am not regretting anything and i have since moved on. we're still friends, my ex and i, and we will remain friends. but right now, i'm not planning on getting involved with anyone...much more, get married.

well, i'm not saying it's a bad word, marriage. but sheesh, it's not in my vocabulary yet! see, i have a friend, maricel, who is a year older than myself. she's a full time mom with two kids and no nanny. the thing is, whenever i ask her if she wanted to go somewhere after class, she would say she can't because she has to go home to her kids. *sigh* sometimes, i really miss jbhee...but she's out of the question too. she's not attending japanese class anymore and the boyfriend is a constant companion...i don't want him tagging along during "girls' days-out", though.

so the point is, getting married early takes the fun out of life, especially if you already have kids. you can't go out when you want to, and you have that big responsibility of taking care of everyone in the family. i'm not ready for that. yet.

gevy and i were chatting about our fantasy husbands, teru (glay) and gackt. it was really funny! we were talking about kicking other girls' asses and keeping them away from teru and gackt. uh, gev, i don't know taichi...but i can bite them girls!!! hehe!! we were fantasizing along fine, then she suddenly blurted out "gackt is mine! teru and gackt are mine!!" so i panicked!! waaahhh!! she kept on ribbing me about it..."mae-chan steals teru, and gevy steals gackt. what a wonderful world!" not, gevy, not!! i wanted to post your picture here, to get back at you...but no, i'm too nice and i love you so i'll forgive you this time, hehe. ^_^

had a weird dream last night...

i dreamed that takashi had a stomach ache and i was taking care of him. strange, because takashi lives in japan. i don't even know how he looks like. but he is the only "takashi" i know so i am positive it was him. i cannot explain how he got into my dreams; i can only explain the part about the stomach ache. simple. i couldn't sleep well last night because i had gas in my tummy. i still have it and my tummy hurts like hell. gevy said i just needed some gackt-loving...ooh-la-la!! yup, gackt, you heard it right...i need you right now so massage my tummy. ^_~

fresh new look for the summer

pam had updated the look of her blog; so did kents. i wanted to, so badly. i've searched through lots of sites yesterday for a gackt blog layout but found nothing i wanted. so i am planning to create several layouts of my own. i already downloaded lots of beautiful gackt pics that i am planning to use...so help me god. ^_^

happy birthday!!

yesterday was miho and sakurai kazutoshi's (mr. children's lead vocals) birthday!

tanjoubi omedetou gozaimasu! many happy returns!! ^_^

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Friday, March 05, 2004

i am up to my neck in snail mail and emails...

and i hate it when i keep people waiting. i think it's unfair. i cannot always say "if you want to know what's been happening in my life all these months, please just look at my blog". before, i tried to write letters during my free time at work, lunchtime for instance. but things have gotten so hectic at the office and at school and i can hardly find time to write. sometimes, i just type my letters so save time. but i don't want to keep doing that; it's not personal at all.

alert! rabid fan girl on the loose!

i was finally able to download gackt's video for his song 十二月のlove song/十二月的情歌 (december love song). he looked, well, normal. his hair wasn't blond, and he was in an all-black "assassin aya"-like "frock". the first part of the song was in chinese, the second one in japanese. i couldn't look at the subtitles; my eyes were busy with his face. ^_^ now, i wanted to study chinese just so i could sing that one song *sigh*if only i were your mike...i would have died happily.

geez, my fingers are itching...they wanted to click on the "add to cart" button at cd japan. so i had to yield *sigh* it is only a matter of days until i become the proud owner of gackt's latest album "the sixth day" and "十二月のlove song", the one that has 十二月的情歌. i will buy the one with the english version later, hehe.

大切な人だからずっと変わらないで笑っていて
大好きな人だからずっと君だけを抱きしめて
Gackt様、結婚しましょうか??

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Thursday, March 04, 2004

thank you lord...

for giving my sister a job. it's been almost a year since she graduated from university and she found it difficult to land a job she wanted. but i am really, really happy that she finally found one. ^_^ i hope herb will find one too.

can't get that mar roxas campaign jingle outta my head...

oh boy, last song syndrome (lss) once again. it's really catchy. no other politician had thought of using parokya ni edgar's "mr. suave" as a campaign theme. mar's campaign team is really something...now everybody is singing "mr. palengke" (mr. market) instead of "mr. suave". his moniker is now a catch phrase. i hope he wins; he did a lot as secretary for trade and industry and i think he will do more as a senator of the country...i believe it is only a matter of months before he becomes known as "senator palengke", hehe.

well, that song reminds me of another person. carcila or car, from the united states. i met her in japan; we were together in the tour and she became one of my closest friends in the group. she lives in guam but her mom is filipino and she can understand and speak the language. i was surprised that she knew the song; she liked it! i think it's nice when people like car do not forget their roots; i admire them for that.

unfortunately, there are filipinos who think they are better than those who haven't set foot in foreign lands, particularly in the usa. hmp! as if their shit smells better!!

got a new favorite song...

charcoal filter's "sayashisa raisensu" is better than "tightrope", in my opinion. it has a better melody, and otsuka yuzo on vocals is terrific (not as good as teru but just as cute, hehe). i still don't know the lyrics, though. i am having a hard time finding the lyrics for that song. 誰か手伝ってくれる?

that superferry incident

the abu sayyaf claims that "one of them" had caused the ship to sink by exploding a bomb he carried with him. throughout the years, the abu sayyaf has been carrying out acts of terrorism, kidnapping and killing people and then saying afterwards that it was all for allah. i don't get it; apparently, one of my favorite journalists, maria ceres doyo doesn't too. according to her, "how can one punish the innocent and claim reward in heaven? ...i wish self-respecting muslims would raise their voices to denounce the use of islamic jargon in the terrorists' justification of this latest attack on human beings. do they also believe that this kind of "martyrdom" is a sure way to heaven? i don't think so." my thoughts exactly.

i really think muslims should stand up and speak out against terrorist acts like this. they must not allow bandit groups who use islam as an excuse to go on with their acts of terrorism. after all, ideology is very different from extremism.

gackt should suit you!

uh, duh...as if there's anybody in this world who suits me better than him.
"chances are, you like your men a little older and wiser than you" -- who doesn't?? and not only wiser and older, but also better than me at everything. remove "chances are" and "little".
"we all envy you" -- thank you. (hehe)
woohoo! i am in dreamland again. in my utopia where i am with gackt!^_^v

Posted by Catalina Ramos at 14:06 0 comments

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

ritchelle, corrie-sensei and racs

昨夜リッチェルからメッセジをもらった。彼女はボイフレンドができたと言った。彼女より10年年上だそうだ。私はびっくりした!!私はまじ??誰?いつ会ったの?どこに会ったの?と聞くとリッチェルはバカ!それは冗談だよと答えた。was i relieved...i really thought it was true. you owe me one, ritch! don't worry, i will collect! nyahaha! but really, i would rather have a guy 10 years older than 10 years younger. the latter is just like having a younger brother, eww.

i also got a message from sensei last night. gigi-san told me to ask her if we could visit her after class on saturday. well, she said she might go with her mom to the heart center and we could meet somewhere in the area. she still has to confirm her plans. i really hope to see her soon. i missed her so much and i am beginning to wonder how much she has changed since we last saw each other in september in tokyo.

i sent another message, this time to racs, and i found out that she has stones in her ureter. i wondered if too much overtime is taking its toll on her. she works ways past regular working hours and also comes to the office even on saturdays. she used to go to work even on sundays but thankfully, the big bosses decided that it was stupid to deprive their employees the much needed weekend rest.

yesterday, to get rid of my depression, i did a search on all gackt-related quizzes on quizilla and i answered the most interesting ones. i was quite happy with my results, especially with the "Which J-Rock Male Should Suit You". well, of course, if it wasn't gackt, i will retake the quiz again and again until i get the result i want!

GACKT should suit you!
GACKT
should suit you!


Which JROCK male should suit
YOU?

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Tuesday, March 02, 2004

the technique to overcoming depression

when you don't have chocolate on hand is to listen to happy songs, bouncy tunes like smap's "yozora no mukou" and "sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana"...and not gackt's "last song" and hana hana's "sayonara daisuki na hito". works everytime! in fact, i feel a little better now. ^_^

Posted by Catalina Ramos at 12:55 0 comments

rants of a depressed cat

i'm slipping once again into a semi-depressed state...i am slowly realizing that working here is futile. first, i don't play a part in the politico-economic monitor -- even if i am a member of the economic team. second, the paper i used to do on the fiscal deficit has been aborted, i think. third, i am no longer a part of the international affairs team for reasons i still cannot understand. in fact, being part of the international affairs team was one of the very few reasons why i deferred my resignation last year. i was excited about my new duties and i felt it was a waste to just leave those behind so soon. sadly, it didn't last long. i'm not saying i'm better than anybody here, because i am not. all i wanted is to be given the same opportunity and treatment the rest of the team is getting.

so what's the use of staying here if not for the money?? not even the money is good, i must say. i might as well do a takashi and quit while i try to find my path. maybe i should just apply at the central bank. i'm so confused; maybe i need to talk to my supervisor. she always has something enlightening to say, something i overlooked because i got carried away by my emotions. maybe when she's not too busy. or maybe i will just send her an email if i can't gather up the courage to speak to her face to face.

i'm posting this quiz result to cheer me up. somehow, the explanation is true; that's who i am, optimistic, determined. or at least, i try to be, in most situations. but right now, i cannot. this is why i miss ritchelle so much. she's been through the same things i am going through right now. we're so similar in many ways and i can always count on her when i needed someone for some really serious talk...which she always turns into something funny and silly. whether she does that intentionally or not, i cannot be sure. but one thing is for sure: she always manages to put back the smile to my face.

c'mon gackt, where are you when i needed you!

Phoneix

You are Form 0,
Phoenix: The Eternal.

"And the Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."


Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian). The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun. As a member of Form 0, you
are a determined individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optimism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have a
way of looking at going through life as a journey
that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.

Which Mythological Form Are You?

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Posted by Catalina Ramos at 12:30 0 comments

Monday, March 01, 2004

i found something really interesting!

i am so happy with my results (see below). before i got the results, i was telling myself "i will retake the quiz if it isn't japanese". but luckily, i got what i wanted! i didn't cheat, really!!

Japanese
Hai, sou desu yo! Yuu masuto supiiku JAPANESE ooru
yuu wontu bii happi asu ooru de adda Anime-
kyarakutaasu araundo yuu! ^^


What language are you supposed to speak?
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Posted by Catalina Ramos at 15:11 0 comments

i saw a plane this morning...

and i wondered if it was bound for japan. if so, i thought i should be on that plane and not down here. sometimes, i just have this very strong urge to leave this country altogether. not that i feel hopeless here, mind you. it's just that, living standards there are much better. and with the national elections coming up, everything is just hell here. things will get worse as we get nearer to may and i am not looking forward to that.

the monbusho results are out...

and i am soooo jealous! chiu-sensei was one of the awardees, so is nina gallego, 2002 most outstanding student of nihongo (the same award i won last year). my initial reaction was "can i go with you??". wow, they are so lucky! now, i'm more inspired! i want to study hard so i can get a scholarship too. i'm really surprised; i didn't expect so many people would be granted research scholarships by the monbusho. i'm really happy; this means, i have a really big chance of making it if i work really hard on my applications next year!

woohoo! gackt's newest album is out!

"gackt: the sixth day" is his first best-of compilation, according to cd japan. it doesn't include "december love", my most favorite gackt song, but it has almost all of gackt's most loved songs. (here begins the bad cat-good cat dialogue) so should i get it?? get a grip on yourself, cat...you promised not to spend too much, especially on internet shopping. it is your new year's resolution, in case you are forgetting. but don't you think i deserve this album?? i need to reward myself every now and then too. i know, but that's what you say whenever you want to justify your purchases! so i can't get the album?? how about manga instead? i still haven't got saiyuki reload 2&3 and i don't have any from yami no matsuei yet. the answer is still no. *sigh*

happy birthday, herb!

i'm really sorry, i cannot recall the exact date of your birthday. i only remembered the month. you told me that when we were in japan. anyway, MANY HAPPY RETURNS and have a very blessed year. i miss you, my friend!

Posted by Catalina Ramos at 14:44 0 comments